avatar(s): nibiru fæ, tris kemet
role(s): art director, writer, music producer, vocalist, recording engineer, graphic designer
associate(s): champion johnson, enne dawson
date(s): 01.2020-10.2022
location(s): dallas, tx, usa
platform(s): macbook pro, ipad air, mac mini m1, garageband, logic pro x, bandlab
eyes glazed over like i'm living*
with glaucoma, every day i've been
stone cold sober,
still i'm waking up filled with paranoia.
shit's killing me slow it's a poison,
i stay looking over my shoulder
friends turned to strangers, i don't know you.
i see the danger but can't show you.
don't get any closer. you follow patterns just cause you're supposed to,
i spot the path 'fore it comes into focus.
mark on my back so i only move forward.
numb to the violence but scared of emotion.
since a youth what i seen made me colder.
innocence stolen, child look like a soldier.
grew up in graveyards surrounded by vultures,
angel of death lurking round every corner.
i hear the static
filling my head up, i don't understand it.
all of these drugs turned my brain to elastic,
shit got me stuck like i'm caught up in traffic.
smoke getting thick, i might be sick;
can't stay in this hell it's not human.
take another hit, shake off this shit;
keep telling myself don't stop moving.
i start to panic, don't know my city no more it's a labyrinth,
all of a sudden a whole different planet.
enemies move in the dark, it's magic.
entropy pulls me apart till i vanish.
smoke getting thick, i might be sick;
can't stay in this hell it's not human.
take another hit, shake off this shit;
keep telling myself don't stop moving.
they're selling 'em to me
like an advertisement,
all of those pretty lies babe;
let me fantasize.
feel that if i'm lost inside
wandering my altered mind
i might never die,
never cry, never open my eyes.
i'm flying blind, can't see the signs;
it's a roll of the dice.
pay with my life, this is the price,
all that i leave behind.
spaced out on the train, now it's midnight,
last stop and i step off the line.
never think twice, i'm in my right,
watch as the stars align.
hunted like animals,
icy tension cause our worlds ain't compatible.
isolation turning kings into cannibals,
pressure building got me thinking quite radical.
feeling that i found the antidote, gone down a rabit hole.
got tunnel vision, i move like an admiral;
fuck the collateral, bodies are stacking tall.
it's the end of it all, bow for the curtain call.
lately shit feels so irrational,
gory, no plot, it's a slasher show.
crushed in the gears, mechanical;
live in the shadow of capital.
fight for scraps, ain't no meals, it's tyrannical.
pigs and rats at the feast, it's unnatural.
red and black, loyalty isn't national.
tit for tat, switching teams is an act of war.